It's not goodbye, just see ya later..

Today is the day I say goodbye to my great grandma, a beautifully strong amazing woman. A woman who has given me the courage to know life isn't easy but it sure as hell is worth it. As my heart breaks standing by her bed saying not goodbye but I will see you later. As I reached down to hold her frail hand in mine I was hoping she would look up at me and say "I love you more." like she always would when I would leave her house. Like I've posted before, us Becks do NOT like goodbyes, that's why I told her I will see ya later. Soon she will be gone physically but will forever be with me spiritually guiding me through my life.. I knew this moment would come just wish it wasnt this soon.. For me this is the second "goodbye" I have said in one week. All I can say is God is good, I hurt right now but I willl not shatter because these two beautiful women I have lost this week would beat me silly. Or as my grandma used to say she would manock me! Yes she was a feisty one, and always put up a good fight.. Till we meet again Grandma, I'll be thinking of you and using all the dirty Spanish words you taught us, I love you. Rest in peace.

He Loved Me First....

Father's day is right around the corner and I just wanted to take a moment to thank my Daddy for being the best Dad in the world. Dad, You never missed a moment of my life and I am incredibly lucky to have such an amazing man as my father. I don't remember a softball game, ballet recital, school play, golf tournament, etc, that you have missed out on. Thank you for ALWAYS being my biggest cheerleader, for being my rock when I am scared or lost in my crazy journey of life. You are the ONE and ONLY man I know I can count on day or night now matter where you are or where you will be you will always be there for me in a blink of an eye. Thank you for pushing me through life and through life lessons that I needed to learn, for being there even when you don't think I am doing the right thing, for supporting me always. I don't know where I would be or what I would do without such an awesome Dad like you. Even though I am "growing up" I will always be your little girl and there will never come a day that I won't need my Daddy anymore. I love you and cherish the building of our friendship with the older I get. Happy Fathers Day. 

Its A Nice Day For A White Wedding...

This last weekend one of our really close family friends got married! And oh my gosh what a BEAUTIFUL wedding it was and there was so much love and joy! I have known Jordan since I was eight and I have known Brandon since I was thirteen and they are beyond the perfect match for each other! I wish them all the happiness and love in the world! All together it was such a gorgeous day and the wedding was perfect.  My mom was in the wedding as a bridesmaid, here are some pictures of this special day!

A Childhood Best Friend...

So this happened a while ago but I just never got around to writing it, about a month ago we had to put my dog down. I got her for my fourth birthday, so that would make her about 17 years old! She was my best friend when I was little, became a companion as I grew up. Although she lived with my parents and she LOVED my Dad, she was mine. It was a really EXTREMELY hard decision to put her down, but now we know she is okay in a better place. Going to miss my Sadie girl! I love you!